Tiger In Memories

Status: Do not bawl over.
Song: Losing Your Memory by Ryan Star. ___________________________________________________
I don't know why I even made this video.
You know it is the worst day of the year when someone you care about died.
It just had to be my cat. The only cat I have left.

It's not like I have tens of cats anymore.

I never really grasped the concept of death. To me, death is something unreal like a nightmare.
It is probably one of the reasons why I can't be a doctor. I never seem to understand death.

I mean how can you move on when someone you expect to be there isn't there anymore.

Like when I woke up this morning, I thought yesterday was just a horrifying nightmare.
But it wasn't meant to be like that.
My cat is still gone and I'm still here.

I have been dealing with dead pets for years but this one was the worst.
I was too numb and shocked to even handle the corpse.
Usually, I would be the one who took care of those dead pets but I couldn't think or do anything yesterday.

It was the worst feeling I had in months.
I knew the cat was going to die at some point or another, I just didn't expect it to be so soon.

I didn't get to touch or pet Tiger this week.
I didn't even heard or saw Tiger this week.
One of the things I missed while in Banting for the first few weeks was Tiger.
Never knew I am going to miss her even while I'm back home.  

I get so teary-eyed over a dead pet but I didn't even shed a tear when my grandfather passed away back when I was a kid.

Obviously I was a heartless kid and just grow a heart.

Someone once said, "People say you don't know what you have got until it's gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it."

You will be missed, Tiger.